I haven't been in the mood to blog and I'm not sure I have the mood to blog now.

It's so hot here. And if anyone goes, "NO WAY!! Brunei hotter ok!" again, I will scold them. Its like a desert here!! It went up to 42 degrees today. Brunei ever reach 40 meh?!! I think Sahara desert is cooler!! I think its not that bad at night in the desert even! I could not sleep last night till 2/3 am!! So I've decided, every summer (in Australia), I'm going back!!!

And, I got my Sydney University offer. Except, NOT PLANNING to accept because I don't like Sydney's life and my mum kind of want me to leave Sydney after what I've been through last year.

BUT, my aunt doesn't want me to leave. She kept telling me if I stay in Sydney, I save on rent. I did the calculation. If I stay in Sydney and I always pay for the super expensive transport fees, and add if with my tuition fees, it is almost the same if I go to Adelaide and pay for rent. Seriously! Maybe on $500 difference. And I stay here, no use. I can't work. I have to always come home early to clean the house. And most importantly, I'm not happy here. PFFT~

And then my uncle told me, if you want, you can stop for half a year and go to uni half a year later. HELLO, I'm not young anymore. Tell me wait for half a year?? No thank you.

Then my other uncle told me to apply UK. I'm under Australia foundation, I don't think I can even apply for UK!

Arghh. I hate it when everyone is telling me different things to do. So.....

I don't know.

I want to go back, really. But summer is almost over. I don't mind spending winter here. If I can enter Adelaide uni, then my mum will most likely come over. I hope. But it will be really cold already.... Hai~ I hate the weather here. So unpredictable.

Oh well...

I got my full results already. It is ok, I guess. I know I could do better if I weren't living with relatives. When I was studying, they came and 'interrogate' me about what I want to do in uni. So stupid you know. Can't it wait till after exam? Will die meh?

What I cannot stand is when something happens, they don't trust me.

Its like when my aunt got a call from school the other day saying I didn't attend 2 days class. 2 days!!! And she called me.. Didn't ask me whether its true. Just started scolding me. Who would believe Kimberly will skip class? Then there's when my aunt in Brunei told my aunt in Australia that my mum sent me money. She called me straight away and asked me how I spent all those money and asked me why I never tell her. Is it a crime for my mum to send her daughter money?

I think if the school called my mum and say, "your daughter didn't come to class for two days!" My mum will say, "Bullshit!"

At least that's what she said when I told her what happened and my aunt called to scold me. How come the older generation can't trust us?? Is it so hard for them to try and ask first before scolding. She rather believe my stupid school than her own niece. Can you believe it?!

I hate it so much when people don't trust me. When people force me to "save" money by staying in a place where I hate. I think the environment/place where I live is the most important thing for my studies at the moment. Not saving money. But the adults just don't get it.

So there you go. The beginning of my 2009. Sucks